Seven months (+4)
My precious baby J -
Although it will never seem like long enough, we’ve been blessed beyond words to have you in our life for seven sweet months. Thank you for making us a mommy and a daddy. We prayed for you long before you existed and I am so glad that God chose us to be your parents.
As you lie in your bed for the last time taking your last nap here, there are absolutely no words to explain my love for you. You have brought us so so much joy. It’s amazing how such a little thing can make such a big difference in our lives.
I know that you will become a wonderful man and I am so proud of you already.
The last few days have been the hardest of my life, but your smile has been like medicine to my soul. I hope that you never go a day without knowing how much you are loved and needed.
Forever love you, sweet boy.
“My love will fly to you each night on angel’s wings”
December 7th, 2009 at 2:55 pm
Erin,
I’ve read your blog for a couple of months, now. My best friend goes to church with Rebekah Bullard, so I found your blog through that path. My heart is hurting for you. I have 2 little girls, and even the thought of ever saying goodbye to either of them is enough to break my heart. My eldest daughter is a step-daughter, and while not the same as adoption, I know what it’s like to love a child who’s not “yours”, but to love them with everything you have. I read your blog last night about “how do you remember a smell”. It brought me to tears and you’ve been on my heart since then. You have been his Mommy, and you should never have to say good-bye to him. I’m so so so sorry for what you’re going through. Please know that I will be praying for your family, and especially for your heart. Just remember that while nothing else may give you comfort right now, NOTHING, and for awhile you may want NOTHING to comfort you - God is close to the brokenhearted. Psalm 34:18
December 7th, 2009 at 3:23 pm
praying for you !
December 7th, 2009 at 5:24 pm
I have thought of you ALL day. I have checked your blog, gosh, I don’t know how many times today.
I can’t say anything that will make you feel better. Know that, a stranger I am, I love you. God loves you and is there with you.
You are in my thoughts and prayers constantly.
Kelly~
December 7th, 2009 at 6:24 pm
I know we don’t know each other but if you ever need to talk or vent or just cry with someone, I’m here!
December 7th, 2009 at 7:07 pm
I have never commented but followed your blog for some time. You & your family has been in my thoughts the past few days. Praying for peace and comfort for you in the next few days.
December 7th, 2009 at 7:30 pm
i love you sister. give sam all the hugs and kisses he deserves. wish i was closer and could be there with you and heath. see you very soon!
love you!
December 7th, 2009 at 8:22 pm
Such sweet words from a momma to her son. I’m so sorry that he isn’t in your arms right now. I can only imagine the hurt you feel. I’m praying for you tonight.
December 7th, 2009 at 9:23 pm
My heart is hurting for you, Erin. You’ve been on my mind all day long and I can’t imagine how you and Heath are feeling right now. Praying for peace and comfort for you both.
December 7th, 2009 at 10:32 pm
All I can say is we are still praying for you guys.
December 8th, 2009 at 5:46 pm
Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.
I’m so sorry that you’re going through this, but he is so lucky to be so loved.
December 8th, 2009 at 7:31 pm
Erin I have been following your blog since you got little J. My friend told me about this while I was in the throws of infertility and the journey to adoption. My heart is aching for you and your husband. I have prayed for you everyday that God will give you strength, comfort, and peace. I cannot imagine the pain and loss you are feeling. All I have to offer is my continued prayer and to tell you to that in Matthew 5:3 Jesus said, \\"Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.\\"
December 16th, 2009 at 7:19 am
Erin,
You don’t know me, but I commented on a previous post. I can see the love you and Heath have for your boys. My heart is absolutly breaking for both of you in this situation with J. You have all been in my thoughts and prayers. You will always be J’s mommy and daddy and Sam will always be his brother. I know this is the hardest time in your lives, but please update to let us know how you are doing. I cannot even imagine such a loss. But please just let us know how you are doing. You, Heath, J, and Sam will remain in my prayers. God Bless you all!
Sincerely,
Caitlin Schulte
December 29th, 2009 at 9:21 am
oooohhhhh erin!! i cant think of any words that may be of comfort in such a hard time! so i am sending hugs and prayers your way!! we love you guys!
January 5th, 2010 at 11:26 pm
Oh Erin, I’ve just found your blog but I read through all of them-from the time J was placed in your lives. I’m so so so sorry about your loss. I wish I could take away your pain. I know I can’t, so I pray that God does.
January 26th, 2010 at 10:26 pm
Hey there, I know you’ve been through a lot lately and posting is probably the last thing on your mind, but I was just thinking about you and wanted to pop by and see how things are going…
March 9th, 2010 at 10:05 am
I can’t remember if I’ve commented before but I just wanted to say that I have been thinking of you and praying for you a lot. I can’t imagine what you are going through but I hope you are doing OK. Praying away.